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Saturday, March 15, 2008

cj's words

you see the world outside your window, and you want to be the bird, the sky, the tree, the grass. not just read about it, and understand it, but really be it. when i see you as the sky, the bird, the tree, and the grass i know why you are there, and i think you get there and get caught up in the experience of experiencing before you know how you got there.

i asked for clarification and was told this...

if we think about the pictures you take, you are there as a witness and you see whatever you see through the lens, but part of you becomes what you are looking at for just a second. and then the other part of you pulls you back, and you know you missed something, but don't know what.

i told her that i didn't always want to miss things. and she said...

you don't when it comes to other people, only when it comes to you.

probably the most beautiful thing and the saddest thing someone has ever said about me. ever.

4 comments:

CJ said...

Natalie, I am glad you found it beautiful, but, I wish you did not believe it to be sad.

These few words describe a part of you and it is how I see you!

But please know, even these words are not adequate enough to encompass who you are completely.

You honor me, by even mentioning here.....

Natalie said...

cj - thanks for looking that hard, and thanks for speaking up. the honor was all mine.

Mike S said...

So very well expressed cj, wish I had the imagination and eloquent way of expressing my feelings. You captured what I know of her perfectly:)

cj said...

Mike- Thanks! It shines through if you are watching, and seeing.